Living with ambiguities can be entertaining, sexy and fun. It can also be very exhausting in the long run. During a breathtaking climax of crises happening over the last weeks, one ambiguity in my life has just abruptly been resolved and turned into something rather ordinary and predictable.
Although this has removed a lot of magic from my life, it has also set free a lot of energy. Energy to face the rest of the current crises, especially those of a family-related and of a professional nature. Energy to re-establish some long-missed habits, like book-reading and meditation. Energy to turn my usual nervous and chaotic communication style – overeager immediacy on the one hand, negligence on the other – into something less impatience-driven.
And also, energy to find some new and magical ambiguities.